I'M A BAD BLOGGER.
I'M SORRY.

      Anyway, hey!
I've been gone a while, and I'm sorry about that. I've just been very occupied with a bunch of other stuff, and I've been forgetting to visit. C;

At this moment, I'm very burnt.
I went swimming all day Tuesday, and got sun poisoning. I'd hoped to see Ryan that day too, but nope. Anyway, I usually don't burn, save from a small patch and that's it for the summer. But this time, I got it all over my arms and shoulders. my chest, a little on my back, and my face. Uggggh. Now everything's all itchy.

I hope to get a job soon, but the place I want to apply at it a SECRET. ;D
I also want to find out what exactly I need to do to be a good candidate for zoos with aquariums or Sea World or something like that. I wanna work with fishes! :D I have this passion for marine creatures and sea life and mermaids and aaaaaaaaah. Also, this octopus is pretty cool! :3

Did I mention I love the oceans?

I'm also obsessing over braids and hair stuff, and beauty junk in general haha. Nothing I can indulge in until I start shedding. :P

Alright, have a good day! Or night.. or whaaatever you want.

xoxo,
 
          Desert Destroyah

Soooooooooooooooooooo.....

Today was crap, haha. I came home early 'cause my stomach hurt so bad, took an hour nap and was fine.

Tomorrow is my momma's birthday, and my Mid- East orientation.

Sometime soon I try out for guard...for the third time. I don't know why they even make us try out haha.

AND SATURDAY

I am getting my belly button pierced. :D
I get to take one of my best friends in the whole world with me, and we're gonna have a few hours (at least) together. It'll be my mother, her, and I. Oh, and I also ordered two bananas already, 'cause I've been looking at things on this one sight and found two I loved but were on clearance. Gotta get them while you can. ;P

xoxo,
DesertDestroyah

So today was interesting. I found out I got accepted to the Early Childhood Education program at the local trade school, which I don't know if I'm going to go through with or not. I mean, it's a really good opportunity. The school is great, the program itself is great. What better way to make the future better than starting at the bottom? I just don't know. It'll be a really big change and I'm just really iffy on it.

Also, I accepted that I was never the favorite girlfriend. There were two of us, one for Ry and one for his brother. Both of us were pretty close friends with their older sister. And today I realized that I was the one that was never cared about... heck, it took about a year for us to be able to tell his parents we were dating. Then, it took MONTHS to get his dad to look at me, let alone talk to me. But a while ago, his brother broke up with his girlfriend. And it hit me, what was their sister going to do now, now that I'm the only one? Eh, I'm not sure I really care to know, just a thought.

The last thing for tonight,


I CAN'T WAIT TO GET MY JACKET. ;A;



xoxo
DesertDestroyah

I haven't blogged in FOREVER.

Sorry about that, heh..

Anyway, my life has been comprised of sleep, sims, MCR, and Frank having a baby boy today. <3
I don't know what they've named him or anything, but I bet he'll be every bit as handsome as his dad. :D

Also, I convinced my granny to get me an early bday present. :D

That jacket will be mine in a little over a week! My birthday isn't until May, but in exchange for the earlyness, it's all I get lol.

I'm still raising money for that surprise, and I have 50 some dollars! (I haven't added in the latest collection) I'm so close, but I'm still pretty far... I'll get there!

xoxo
DesertDestroyah

Okay, so, here goes.

My friend has a costume that she wears every now and then that makes her all warm and fuzzy inside.  She's currently out of state, across the country even! And we talked about it, and decided that I should get a costume of my very own, so we can wear our costumes when I stay with her. And I'm so excited. :3

I'd tell you what I'm getting, buuuuuuuut only a few people know what it is, because they're very close to me. Other than that, I wanna keep it a secret. Sorry. ;D There is a BIG clue in this post though. ;D

So, I have to save up because at least one thing in my costume costs 80 dollars!! With shipping, It's about 100! But it's worth it. <3

I currently have $32.77 dollars of the $120 I'd like to have. So, I'm not too close, but it's a start!

I'm so excited. :3

xoxo,
Desert Destroyah

My Frerard fanfic is going well. ^-^

I have a lot of inspirational pictures for it.

Today's been really good, too. It's been a day full of MCR's music, Gerard's smiles, Frank's ADHD-ness, Ray's poofy hair, and Mikey's awesome bass skills.

And it's only almost 1. ^-^ I'm looking forward to the rest of the day! Maybe I'll do some doodling later, then I'll watch Ghost Adventures tonight!

Woo! :]

(BTW my favorite gif of Frank is at the top. Just click if you want to actually see it. ^-^)

I.....

I.......

I...........

I SHIP FRERARD. ;A;

THEY'RE ADORABLE.

It's probably not legit.

BUT STILL. ;A;

I really shouldn't be listening to this LOL

But it's definitely something I can dance too. ;D

*dances*

My week keeps getting better and better.

I've been sick all week, people are being moody little douches, and my candles can't be used.

First of all, just because I don't want to do every little thing you want me to, does not mean I'm giving you attitude. You're no more special than everyone else I've said no to. Get over it.

Second, and this is kinda out of the blue, I'm on Gaia again. :3

Third, my grandfather is on oxygen, which means no candles. I LOVE candles. And no petroleum, apparently? Which means I'll have to get rid of a bunch of stuff, more than likely. All because he didn't take care of himself, and the hospital wanted to be a douche. I was having a hard enough time dealing with him to begin with.

So, that's pretty much my week in a nutshell. Anger, sickness, anger, anger.

Oh, and I still don't know if my mother is going to get over herself and get me the phone she PROMISED me she would get months ago. She's telling two different stories. I can't wait to get out of here, and lose my name.

Love,

Desert Destroyah

Finally, I'm blogging again.

Life's been a little hectic lately, I apologize. C;

Anyway, life's been weird. Even more fake friends are showing themselves, as well as some true friends are. School sucks and my grades are horrible. I feel like I'm trapped here, like I'm in a rut. And I hate feeling trapped with a passion.

So, it's been a whole mixture or anger, depression, some happiness. I'm pretty much a mess right now. But I'm working with what I have, that's for sure.

Ryan got a phone again, so I can finally text him 24/7 again. :3

I had a pretty serious talk with my friend August about that depression and feeling trapped, and just being unhappy in general. And I'm going to combine her advice with Gerard's.


So, to unhappiness, negativity, depression, etc:

Go screw yourself.

Love,
Desert Destroyah

I CANT STOP LISTENING.

ITS AN EARGASM EVERY TIME.

Help. .-.

Love,
Desert Destroyah

Hey. :]

So, life's been weird lately.

I've become closer to a few people, and pushed a few people away.

I've become a little more confident in myself.

I can't wait to get out of this freaking town.

I can't wait until I'm eighteen, simply so I can get my piercings and tattoos LOL.

And another reason, but that's a secret for now. ;D

Anyway, I hope this next week goes really well, and hopefuly my body won't hate me and make me feel like crap/sick for a while.

Love,

Desert Destroyah

Heya!

I've been gone a while, huh?

That's cause nothing exciting happens here. EVAR.

I basically just look at stuff on Tumblr, do homework, eat, sleep. Start all over again.

Soooo.....yeah. Let's just pretend there's something super exciting here, that just MADE YOUR DAY! Or night. Whatever.

Love,
Desert Destroyah

So, over the past 4-5 days, I've gotten my shirt and my tin of picks.

Yesterday, at midnight, I couldn't keep anything down. So I got a nice trip to the ER at 1 in the morning. Then I spent all day yesterday sleeping. I didn't even get up to eat. I went to the doctor today for a follow up, and I missed school today. I'm probably not going to be going tomorrow, either. Yay! Not. The quarter started today, what a great way to start it off.

I got my necklace today, which makes it a little better. But I do still have a pounding headache, which is more than likely a migraine. Ugh.

Hopefully tomorrow is better.

This is me, when someone says they like MCR.

                  When I think about how far the guys have come, and how far I've come with them.

When someone allows me to fangirl freely.

My face when someone interrupts my fangirling.

Anyway, I still haven't gotten either of my packages. It's been a week since I ordered the shirt and picks. It's been only a couple of days since I ordered the necklace, so I'm not worried about that.

I want my shirt and picks soooo bad. /dies

Anyway, enjoy the mini picdump, it's all legit. XD

I have nothing exciting to report, other than we're supposed to get a bunch of snow, so maybe no school tomorrow? I hope not.

Love,
Desert Destroyah ;D

You see those? Yeah those awesome things right there?

Those are MINE.

Just ordered them, and I can't wait until they get here, along with my shirt and tin of picks. I'll have another MCR one to add. :3

Okay, I'm out.


Love,
Desert Destroyah. ;D
(I really do love that name)

Guess what I got in the mail today?!?!?!?!?

NOTHING.
NOTHING WHAT-SO-EVER.

                           Gerard does not approve of this.

Oh well. Tomorrow, maybe? I really hope so. :/ I really want my stuff.
Well, that was my day.

Thinking about MCR.
Singing MCR.

Looking at MCR.
Thinking about my MCR stuff.
MCR.
MCR.
MCR.
MCR.

Good day. This song is appropriate, considering my killjoy name would apparently be Desert Destroyah. LOL.

Since I'm bored, here we go!
My life as a movie, according to my iPod.

Opening Credits: ET- Katy Perry

Waking Up: Stereo Hearts- Gym Class Hereos

First Day of School: Just Dance- Lady Gaga

Falling In Love: Just Like Me- Paramore

Fight Song: Give 'Em Hell, Kid- My Chemical Romance

Breaking Up: I'm Not Okay- My Chemical Romance

Life’s OK: Fever- Family Force 5

Getting Back Together: The Only Hope For Me Is You- My Chemical Romance

Wedding: Guilty Pleasure- Cobra Starship

Birth of Child: The Mortician's Daughter- Black Veil Brides

Final Battle: I Don't Care- Fall Out Boy

Death Scene: Sleep- My Chemical Romance

Funeral Song: In My Arms- Plumb

End Credits: Na Na Na- My Chemical Romance

I want my stuff to arrive so bad. But it'll come on Monday, at the earliest. D;

And I don't know why there are white blocks. but I'm done trying to fix it .-.

Despite there being a funeral yesterday, I had a really good day.

I woke up around 4 in the morning, and we left around 4:30. We drove until we got about 20 minutes away from where we needed to be to meet up with family for the funeral. We stopped and ate at Bob Evans, which was amazing. I don't get to sit and actually have a meal with my mom often. Then we went to a relative's house, then to the funeral home.

After the funeral and everything, we went and ate with the rest of our family at some place in town. That part was... okay. Then my mom and I left and went to my Grandpa Orians' house. He lives quite a while away, and I never get to see him. He and my grandma divorced long before I was born, and I didn't even know he existed until 7 years or so ago.

Anyway, we visited with him for a few hours, then left since we had a three hour drive ahead of us. We stopped along the way and ate at a Cracker Barrel. We have one here, but oh my gosh. Their's was sooo nice. They kind of had that southern Ohio twang. And it was actually kind of nice. Then we tackled another hour's worth of driving. My mom was really tired, and we talked to keep each other awake. We had a few good heart-to-hearts, along with me fangirling about MCR to her. xD

And for the first day in my life, I got to see the sun rise and set in one day. Usually, I just know it happens. But yesterday, I got to actually see both happen. And that's pretty special to me.

Now, I just hope my MCR stuff comes soon.(today plz? :3)

OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD.

For the first time EVER, I'm going to be the owner of MCR merchandise. <3
Despite all the things this band has done for me, I've never had the funds to buy merchandise. But now I do!!(Well I did. Until I payed. ;D)

I'm not getting much, but it's enough to make me immensely happy. <3
This is what  I'm getting:


A shirt from Danger Days. (I wish they would sell more of their other era's merch on the site, too. :/)

And a tin of six guitar picks, also from Danger Days. :)

And I'm sooooo excited! Like I said, it isn't much. But it's also $29.68 +shipping worth! I used the dangerdays code and got a little off. ;D

And since I got standard shipping, I have to wait 7-10 days. :/ &we just ordered it this morning.

But okay, I'm gonna go back to Tumblr and find more pictures to fangirl over! <3

Hey!
Another day that wasn't very exciting, but I still enjoyed today!

I went to ballet, and got to hang out with my friends Katie and Jenny afterwards. :D
I got more oranges! I'd eaten them all, and suffered from withdrawal. D: But now I have more!!
Uhhh... Oh! I actually got to email Ryan, cause that's the only way we can talk anymore. :/

And that's really are there was to my day. It wasn't very interesting, but I really had fun today! :3

I believe that I've learned something very important recently.

When I was little, I'd always think the world was against me when something didn't go my way or I wasn't allowed to do something. (Admit it, we all feel that way at some point in our lives, even if we weren't old enough to remember so.) And I've learned that "being on someone's side" doesn't mean just telling them they're right, or letting them do what they want, or any of that. Being on their side also means telling them when they've done something wrong, or when they've gone too far, or they aren't allowed/supposed to do something.
When you tell someone they're right, and also when they're wrong, that's caring. You care enough to tell them that something they're doing is wrong or stupid. Which may sound stupid, but I get it now. I really do...


I guess my mom was right. "You'll understand when you're older.."

Today has been.....fun.
A bunch of drama has spring up, and I'm on orange withdrawal. And I will be until the fourth. Dx
I realized I have a buttload of homework I need to do, cause my grades are crap. I took a shower and gave up. And I go back to school in, oh, 12 hours. Not to mention the hours I take out of that for sleep.

Oh, geez. Maybe I can get back into the homework doing mood tomorrow. Probably not.

Anyway, my day has been pretty boring aside from that. So, here's something to listen to. It's the same as the last post's, sorry. But I'm addicted to this song right now.

Happy new year!!

I don't usually get very excited about new years- but I kind of am this year. Sooo many things happened and changed this last year. This is my excitement:

- Lost a friend for the better. Oh God, was it for the better.

-I met the love of my life.
Errrr, that was 2010, now that I really think about it. But it still happened, so it's staying. ;D

-I got to actually meet Akai. :)

-I fell in love with a bunch of bands allll over again.

-I started actually learning German.

-& I met sooo many new people, and helped so many people last year, I can't help but want it to continue into this year. <3

There are so many other things, but only a couple come to mind for things I want to do this year. I want to see Gerard Way, and meet Zak Bagans. <3 (maybe it's because Gerard is in that GIF, and I was just watching Ghost Adventures. ;D)

Either way, I want this year to be an amazingly wonderful year.
Again, Happy new year! <3